It’s been a while since I’ve posted an official “update”. We have so many friends and family who have given, and are joining us in prayer – I felt like I wanted to post “something”. So here it is: we are still waiting.
It hasn’t always been easy, and there are still moments where it’s not. But we’ve been reminded through it all – sometimes it’s okay to wait. Just like the blog I posted earlier this week, sometimes it’s good for us to remember that in the midst of ugly suffering – there is something beautiful and precious happening. We can hope and pray that something along those lines is happening here.
Whether it’s the fact that our daughter is having a few more days with her birth family; or simply that God knows I haven’t quite released my desire to “do it on my own strength” yet….or possibly even just because it just hasn’t happened yet. We continue to receive a peace about where we are at this point. Waiting. Trusting. Breathing slowly. Knowing that God’s activity is not contained only in the act of bringing home our daughter….these moments are formative, prayer-inducing, and Spirit-relying. After all, “patience” is just one bit of the Fruit of the Spirit….right?
Pratically – we’re at the top of the list still. We’ve had more than one occasion where we received the offer of a referral that almost met the requirements we’ve been approved for. In each case, there has been a difficult moment of prayer, and incredible experiences of desperation before a God who we want to love – and who Loves these children. It’s not easy to release a child/children who really needs a family, but we know there are several incredible families on the list after ours – many who are better set-up or shaped to receive these.
So for now, we continue to pray. We check our e-mail about once an hour (at least). We pray some more. We try to figure out how to raise a few more bucks (only about $10,000 left to go, if you wanna give just click here!). We talk about what God is doing, and look forward to how our family will grow….in so many ways.
And not forget that we have 3 daughters at home who are being transformed by being a part of our family as well. Their little hearts are bursting with Love, even in the moments it may not be 100% transparent. They get so excited to realize that by living from love – they are changing the world. The WORLD. They pray for Phoebe, and can’t wait to meet her.
Someday soon, we will move forward. Until then..we continue to grow and be changed….